Here we go again....

It's funny how life has its hills and valleys. Lately, I have just been reflecting on how important it is to have a good attitude during the bad times. It is so hard though. Friday night, Scott and I got to go on a date...it's been such a long time since we have been out together alone. We had dinner at Subway sandwiches and then went to 3D Harry Potter 7.2 at the "Dollar Movie" which was awesome.  Being out with Scott was awesome and the movie was awesome too.  After the movie, I felt achy and sore but I thought that was because I had been sitting so long. But, it got worse as the night went on and the next morning, it wasn't any better. I felt uncomfortable all weekend and I have all the symptoms that I had just before I went to the hospital two months ago: achy and sore, last night-a fever of 101.5F, being too hot, then too cold, loss of appetite and the pain in my gut...I'm thinking my infection is back. So, I call the doctor this morning to make an appointment and they transfer to me to the nurse. I get the voicemail and I left a detailed message. After waiting 90 minutes, I call back and say I really need to make an appointment. Well they won't see me today unless the nurse approves it. So, meanwhile I am just trying to be patient and wait for the nurse to call. It's hard for me to wait because once I decide to do something, I want to just do it and get it done. The doctor told me last month that it was my choice whether to do the hysterectomy or not but if my infection came back, I really needed to get it done. So, I know that's what has to happen and now I'm just impatient to get things scheduled and done so I can enjoy my holidays. Well, it's not going to work out exactly how I want it to and I need to just be patient. But it is hard. Anyway, I'm not so sore that I need to go to the emergency room or instacare..I'm just uncomfortable and I can wait and be patient. Scott and our hometeacher, Jeff gave me a blessing last night and this morning I woke up without a fever and without aches and pains. what a blessing. But I know that I need to take care of this still and I will...it is just taking more time than I want. I don't want to wait my turn :-). Anyway, my goal this time around is to be more cheerful and more patient with my kids. I can see why some people that deal with chronic sickness are grouchy because it is not fun to not feel well! Wish me luck!