Moving Forward

Yesterday I was released from being the Primary President in my ward. I have served for a little over three years.  Today, although I feel a big burden off my shoulders and honestly a little relief, I feel a little lost.  Being primary president has been part of my identity for a long time and it is an adjustment.  This morning, I usually have a presidency meeting and I'm not....I will so miss the ladies that I worked with in my presidency. I know I will still see them in church every week but it is not the same serving side by side with them. I will so miss being with the kids on Sunday and being in Relief Society will feel so strange.  My son Aaron, who is six years old was a little upset when he realized in sacrament meeting that I wasn't president anymore.  He glared at me and said, "I don't want you to leave Primary!" I was called as president just before he became a sunbeam so he doesn't ever remember me not being in primary with him.  I hugged him close and told him it would be okay and that even if I wasn't in primary with him, I would always be his mother and that is what is important.  He will get over it and get used to just as I will but it will take some adjusting.  Change is always hard.  I have grown so much in this calling and now I get to grow and stretch in other ways in my new Relief Society calling.  I am the new Visiting teaching coordinator.  I know this calling is important but I feel like Heavenly Father is giving me a break in giving me a calling I feel I can do.  When I was first called as Primary president, I thought, there is no way on Earth I can do this! I knew that I needed a lot of help.  But it is such a treat to be in this new calling.  I know the Lord will give me opportunities to still continue to grow and stretch and I still have lots to learn but I have felt His tender mercies this week so much.  I gave my all as president and did my best and I will do the same with this calling. And I am sure I will have to do things that are out of my comfort zone, but I know the Lord will be there beside me to help me. It has been such a special blessing to be able to be in Primary with my children.  When I was first called, Kalli was in the Valiant 11 class and then she graduated when she was 12 into YW.  I have been able to be there when Aaron and Ammon both were sunbeams and Aidan has gone from junior to senior primary.  What a blessing to be able to work with them and be with them.  Not every mother gets that opportunity.  I know that the new president, Cassity Condit, will do a great job and I am so excited for the opportunity she has to serve. She will get so many blessings. I have felt the mantle of calling leave and go to her and she will do a great job.